That feeling when you wake up and you feel her head on your chest. You look down and you see her sleeping peacefully, breathing slowly while holding onto you on a cold morning. That feeling always makes me flutter.

“What do you want most in a girl?” 

With it being Valentines day, I kinda expected the question but didn’t at the same time. All that matters is that I wasn’t prepared to answer.

But walking through the empty living room in my apartment with the lights off allowed me to look out to the night skyline. The street lights beaming, the snow shining bright, and just the beauty that the night had to offer. I stood there for a second and realized that I felt slightly lonely at that moment, as though I was the only one enjoying that view. 

I began to ponder the question once more from that sheer feeling of loneliness and came to a conclusion. I want a significant other who can appreciate the silence, the darkness in the room, the view outside the glass that separates us from reality. When we look outside we can both imagine the things we can become and the things we will be just by looking out to the night skyline. Seeing a plane fly by and both wishing we were on it as if it were a shooting star leading us to our dreams. Someone who can appreciate the little things, someone who can share that precious feeling with me before we snap back into reality and see that we’ve already achieved one of our dreams.

The dream of finding someone who can share that moment with you without questioning if they think their weird.

No, to me,

you’re perfect.

Happy Valentines day.

You want it for your own selfish reasons.

You take it, you show it, it then gets taken down by a higher power.

You attempt again, and again, one after another the same result, it gets taken down.

You want to risk what we built together just because it was “Close to your heart”. So everything else wasn’t? The tears, the sweat, the amount of work everyone else put wasn’t worth it? It wasn’t close to your heart? Only this one was? Why, may I ask you, why does this one matter so much to you compared to everything else.

You want to keep it for memories but the memories we built together are already embedded into our minds, onto our page for the world to see and in the hearts for generations to come. It seems it isn’t good enough for you, the times we all had, isn’t good enough I see. Now you choose to let this little thing be the broken wood between us. And for what fucking reason.

I too am upset about the situation, but you don’t see it because you only see your own. Now I’m sitting here taking in what you’re saying as if I was the one to blame for the higher power refusing to accept the showcasing of what we have.

Now you want to get angry for something I have no control over, something you feel that is my fault and my burden.

What you don’t understand is, you’re not always right you know.

What you see is only the word at the end of the meaning.

You choose to ignore the Copy,

at an attempt to prove that you’re right.

But you’re not right, instead, you’re risking it all

for your own selfish reasons.

I’ve never been this confused and unsure about my own life. What am I actually doing.

I have never been this annoyed of just people ever in my life. Holy shit fuck you all.

And I didn’t.

so.

Jealous.

Right.

Now.

Expecting me not to hurt from that comment is like me cutting your skin with a knife telling you to not bleed from it. I’ll admit, it made my decent day into a really shit one, I tried to stay positive but it really just made me annoyed and angry.

It hurt.

I’m just like you! I love the rain, something about it just calms my mind and not only that, it has so much potential for gorgeous photography! I love going to cafe’s when it rains, if only I had one near me so I can do it more often..
I also like collecting umbrellas, so I pretty much love rain and snow *^*
oh and autumn :3

Aha thank you, I have another cover coming out tomorrow and an original piece coming out next month! Please anticipate :)